Artemis

It's the second month in a row that I've had cramps and back pain. Back to back months hasn't happened in a long time... in years, actually. It's so easy to forget that I have a chronic disease when the pain and other symptoms aren't there. And so for a long time, I kind of forgot. I think one way of accepting that this disease is in my body and of dealing with the pain is by talking about it more... and by swearing, I think swearing might help. It's not a shameful thing and I really don't care who knows I have it. I don't know how I dealt with this pain when I was so young and for so long. Right now it's not even close to the worst cramps I've ever had, in fact these are pretty minor. Yet, they fucking suck. However, the back pain is worse than I remember it being when I was younger. Growths in a new place? It's possible. With cramps, sometimes if I apply pressure or sit a certain way, it can take the edge off a bit. With the back pain, not...

I didn't do as well as I had hoped with this blogging challenge. But I have posted more this year than I have the last 4 years, so I will call it a success. And I plan on next year being even better. I've never been big on New Year's resolutions. Seems ridiculous that you decide at the beginning of the year to do some things that you couldn't follow through with on previous years. Well, I guess this year I have a resolution. Or more so, resolutions, plural. Or maybe they are more goals than resolutions. Maybe that is the same thing. I really don't know. Some are big things, some are little things. But all things, I think, will make me a better person. Here's my list: 1. Make one close friend in Helena. One that I can call up to go for a glass of wine when it's been a bad day or to go get coffee on a weekend morning. I know this won't be easy, I'll have to put myself out there. I am reading a book that may help me with this task, MWF Seeking BFF . 2. ...