Artemis

I lost my wallet. I am not sure when it happened. I haven't used it since Tuesday and that was in my car. And last night there were men breaking into cars on our street, so it is possible it was even stolen. Though I can't say for sure since I don't know if it was even in my car. I handled it all well. I have known since lunch that it may be lost. I thought of all the rational places to look and looked there. When I got home, I called and cancled my credit cards (which meant using the phone, which we all know is not an easy thing for me). I know my social security card was in there, which you aren't suppose to carry with you. I know all the things I need to do, like get a new SS card, a new driver's liscense, etc. And I dealt with this all fine. Until I remember that my ID for photography school was still in there. Then the tears came. Why did I carry something with me all the time that meant so much to me?! Here comes the tears again. I can't even talk about it...

I know that it has been clinically proven that exercise eases stress and anxiety. And I admit that when I exercise, I feel relaxed and in the long run, it really helps with my anxiety. But that all happens after the exercising. It is the before part that increases my anxiety. For weeks now, I have said I am going to take a yoga class on Wednesday nights. And for weeks, I find a million reasons not to go. I am too tired, I have too much to do, I am sick, etc. Those all just mask the real reason, the idea of going makes me so anxious that I can't even step out the door. So I bail out. Then the guilt comes. The guilt for cheating myself out of health, happiness and relief. I will work myself up to it. I don't know how or when, but I will. More than half the battle is getting there. Once I take the leap, it will feel great. And I can't wait until I find the courage to go. Until then, walks outside all on my own, with no one watching and exercise DVDs when no one is home will h...

I went to our new Super Target on Friday night. I was so excited, it is so close to our house. As I was going through the store, I noticed that across from all of the Halloween decorations, the Christmas decoratoins were up. Now, don't get me wrong. I love Christmas. It is my favorite holiday, and not because of the religious aspect and not because of gifts (our family doesn't give gifts anymore), it just makes me excited like a little kid. But I was so annoyed. Stores now skip over two holidays, Halloween and Thanksgiving. Before we know it, the decorations will be out at Easter just like in " It's the Easter Beagle, Charlie Brown ". I was going through the store, lost in a new place and all huffy about how retailers are ruining my Christmas experience. Then I came upon some snow globes. And I forgot what I was mad about. I love snow globes. There is something magical about them. They take me to a different world. I stood there with "Have Yourself a Merry L...