Artemis

MISCELLANEOUS I have a cold, first of the season. It's not too bad, so let's hope it's the only cold of the season because I can deal with this. I've been way too busy lately. I'm over it. I need to start telling more people no. "No, I don't want to babysit. No, I don't want to dogsit." There. But they probably won't hear me on here. Granted, there are certain people I really enjoy babysitting and dogsitting for, but I just can't do this all the time anymore. I'm exhausted. Which is probably why I have a cold. I'm over being single. Not because I want to be in a relationship just to be in a relationship, but because I want companionship. How do I find that in Helena? I've tried online dating and blind dates without success. All my babysitting and dogsitting makes it hard to meet people. I have one really good friend in Helena. And she's moving to Japan in less than a month. Why do all the good ones have to live so stinking f...

LOCKS of LOVE I chopped off all my hair today. For the third time I will be donating it to Locks of Love . Not only does it make me feel good to donate to a good cause, I also love getting lots of different hair lengths in the time it takes to grow my hair out. Knowing that my hair goes to something for children really takes away all the anxiety of a drastic haircut. And getting the thank you card in the mail puts a smile on my face. It's such a little thing to do to make a big difference in someones life.

KISSES Greysen now gives kisses. It is so sweet. He grabs you with his little hands and pulls you in for an open-mouthed, slobbery wet one. He also gives hugs, just squeezes you tight with his face buried into your shoulder. I just love him so much. There is only one thing better than having one nephew... two nephews. I'm already in love with this new little man because with parents like his, I can already tell he'll be great. And it kills me a little to not see him grow inside his Mama's tummy. I can't wait until I can get kisses from both my sweet nephews.

JEJUNE The definition of jejune is lacking interest or significance. And that's what this entry is, it's jejune. I'm trying to learn some new words with this blogging challenge. I figure if I do, then at least this challenge did just that... it challenged me.

"I am who I am." This has become my mantra. I'm not sure when or how it started. At first, it was what I would force myself to say whenever I looked at myself in the mirror and thought down on myself, like "My pimples are terrible; my hair is so frizzy; I look fat." I always had this thought that people would think less of me or wouldn't like me because of these things and other things, like not having enough confidence in my photography, or not exercising in the right way, etc. By saying this, it was my way of saying that this is the person I am, my pimples, size, whatever, they don't define me and if people have a problem with it, too bad. It went from something I forced myself to say to something that became an automatic response to my negative thoughts. It's no longer what I was trying to be, it became who I am. By learning to be this person, it brought more confidence. Some people may not be able to see beyond my imperfect looks, some people m...