Artemis

Okay, so I didn't blog twice yesterday. But two days in a row is pretty damn good, so be happy with it. On Monday I leave home to return to my daily schedule of being a nanny. I wasn't really homesick when I was there before mostly because I was going to see my family soon. In my head, I am not returning. I keep having the thought: I left home for a couple months, I am done with being a nanny now and I am back home for good. Not the case. I get the feeling that when I return to CT, I will be more homesick than I was before. On a happy note, the mother is going back to work as soon as I return from home. I am happy about this because the little girl listens to me SO well when her mother isn't around and I can't wait to start enjoying her more without the whining and not listening. Also, I get to create my own schedule for the day: when we get up, when we leave for school, what we do after school. It will be all me and I like having that control. I already have a daily sc...

I am failing at blog entry. I am sure by now everyone that actually reads my blog (about 5 people) has now stopped for the lack of entries, with the exception of my impatient sister (see Ramblings of an Impatient Sister on Slapdash ). I have always enjoyed writing, but without something or someone pushing me to do it (again, other than my impatient sister), it is harder to do than I imagined it would be. So I apologize to my readers for not keeping up with my blog entries, I will try to do better. In fact, I may even blog twice today.

I think babies can sense how you are feeling. A few years ago, about a year after I had surgery for endometriosis, I was helping my friend watch her cousins for the whole weekend. Even after being the one to wake up with the 7 month old baby in the middle of the night, I wanted kids more than ever, possibly because I was faced with the fact that I may not be able to have children of my own. One night, I was in the baby's room alone with her. She was crawling around on the floor, trying to escape out her bedroom door. I was thinking about not being able to have children and a few tears fell. Right as they did, the baby stopped, turned her head around, looked at me and headed my way. She crawled up to me, put her hand on my hand, laid her head down on the floor with her face a few inches from mine with her butt sticking up in the air and smiled at me. She laid their for a few seconds, then got up, turned back around and continued her escape from her bedroom. How did she know? Yesterd...

Instead of having writer's block, I have blogger's block. Every night I sit down and think about the various topics I could write about on my blog. I think about the family I work for, the things the little girl has said, my trip to NYC this past weekend (which was so much fun and great to see my friend from photography school). But for some reason, I don't want to write about any of them. I am not sure why I don't want to talk about them, they all are good topics and I have plenty to say about all of them, but nothing comes to mind when I sit down to write. So I have taken out the book my sister jdoc gave me for my birthday a few years ago, "A New Leaf: Ideas for Writing, Inspired by Trees". I will look through it the next couple nights and maybe I will find something to blog about. As for now, I am going to go watch the episodes of LOST from the past 2 weeks that my mother so kindly taped for me. Maybe I will think of something to say about those.

I was going to tell you all about my non-vacation in Florida, but it is a bunch of bah-humbug. It would be all about how the grandfather was really mean, how we almost never left the house, how I didn't see the beach when we were only 15 minutes from it, how I hated the lack of routine because I didn't know when I was supposed to be working or not, etc., etc., etc. But I am just not in that kind of mood, I am in great mood. It is Christmas time, I love this time of year! It really brings out the child in me. While everyone here is complaining about the cold and the snow, I love it. I can't wait until we have enough snow for me to play in! I love Christmas decorations, the town is beautiful with them up. I have them in my room and we have them all over the house. When I look at them, I get all giddy. I have a small Christmas snowglobe and when I turn it over, I get excited. I am heading to New York City this weekend to meet up with a good friend and see the Christmas decorat...

I am finally back from 10 days in Florida. Probably sounds like a vacation, but it wasn't... but that is a different story. I had all intentions of writing a few blog entries while I was gone, even though I didn't have internet access, and putting them on my blog when I returned. I didn't write any. Then when I tried to write an entry last night, the blogger was down, so again, no entry. And now that I have the chance to write about something important, there are so many options that I don't know what to write about and frankly I am not in the mood to write. But by this point you guys are used to my lack of subjects since it has been so long since my last entry, so I am sure you can wait a little longer for a good blog entry (well, most of you can anyway). When I am in the mood to write, I will share about my non-vacation in Florida.