Artemis

I am so bored. I don't like having nothing to do all day. It is fine when it is just for a week or two, but not a month and a half. I want a job. I want to meet new friends. I want to meet a guy. But I don't have skills in any of those areas. "I'm so bored, so bored, sitting in the corner." For those of you that watched early 90's sitcoms, you will get that quote.

My sister introduced me to the television show The Office . And I heart it. I saw Seasons 1 and 2 on dvd in the past week (I watched all of Season 2 between last night and today). The only problem now is that they are half way through Season 3, so I have missed several episodes and it won't come out on dvd until at least this summer... hmm, problem. But you want to know the one thing I heart even more than The Office ? Jim Halpert/John Krasinski (character/actor). He is on the show and I have a huge crush on him. I know what you are saying, you are 25 years old (turning 26 in 2 1/2 months) and crushes on famous people at this age is a little weird, and usually I would agree. It has been many years since I have had a crush on a star. But Jim/John is so an exception. In fact, if I could find a real life guy here in Minnecrap that looks like Jim/John, makes the same facial expressions, has the same sense of humor and is as nice, sweet and kind as him, so basically exactly like Jim/J...

Last night Jessie came downstairs to show me her toenail that is about to fall off. She was in the middle of writing a paper and decided it was something I needed to know. She ran a marathon in October and the toenail falling off is a consequence of it. And while most would be grossed out by this and wonder why it was important enough to come down a flight of very steep stairs, I enjoyed it. Not because it was something I really wanted to see, but because we can tell and show each other these things now that we are living together. Just another pro of living with her.

I have been online for at least 3-4 hours of the day for the past two days searching for jobs. And so far, no luck. I have applied to 4 childcare jobs online and I am going to make a couple phone calls before the day is over, but I just don't feel good about what I have come up with on my search. I know that I won't automatically find the job I love and want to spend the rest of my life doing, I know that I may need to take a just-for-now job until I find the right one. But I am not happy with the selection. More so, I am not happy with how this all makes me feel. I get so disappointed in myself whenever I am job hunting. And then I end up falling back to childcare because I know that I can do it and I know someone will hire me. And I am just not sure I want to do childcare. I want to do something in photography and I have applied to around 17 jobs in photography related fields and not even a bite. They all want someone with photography work experience, which I don't really...

I don't really have much to write about. Nothing is currently going on in my life. Sure, I made a big move, but I am also without a job or a life at the moment, so as soon as I get one of those, I will have more to write about. I came home to the parents' house for a week, excited to relax, explore the town (it has been almost a year since I have been here) and go through my old stuff. Instead it ended up being time to recover from this cold or whatever it is I have. Go figure I would get sick on the only time I have off to relax, seems to always work out that way. Next week will be some hardcore job searching. Not only do I need the money, I also want to work, otherwise I will get bored. I have been in touch with the new nanny, not suprising S is giving her a hard time and Baby S is calling her by my name, which is comforting in a way, means she still remembers me to some extent. I miss Baby S a lot, which is probably another sign it was time to leave, the longer I would have ...