Sweet freedom in 19 sleeps

It has been awhile since I posted a real entry. Not for lack of subject, but because I have too much to say. I have a lot of things going on in my life right now, a lot of things I am feeling. I am getting myself ready (mentally, not so much physically yet) to make another change in my life. I have always thought I was one that doesn't like change, but evidence seems to prove otherwise. Since graduating from college in December 2004, I am about to make my 5th move to my 4th location. And moving isn't the only change, there was the job back home that I started and quit in a short time, photography school in Montana, and being a nanny in Connecticut. All in a month shy of 2 years. So apparently I like change. But this move will be the last one I will make in awhile. I am getting anxious to leave. There are so many things I am looking forward to when I leave here, and not just seeing my family and friends (although that is the big one). I have been making a mental list of all the things I will be able to do and enjoy once I leave here (it helps me get through) such as silence (doesn't happen with kids around), buying and eating whatever I want, being able to talk on a my phone, etc. Leaving the kids will be hard, but everyday I think it will be less hard than I thought. There are so many frustrations, so many things I hate about this job. And while I love these kids, knowing I am leaving in less than 3 weeks makes me feel blissful. Yesterday the mother was complaining about what a bad day she was having because S was pulling her in all directions with things she wanted to do and Baby S was cranky because she wouldn't nap (for the past week Baby S has decided she doesn't need naps, apparently she didn't get the memo that says 13 month olds should still be taking 2-3 hours of naps a day). And all I wanted to say is now you know how I feel. So nothing seems more exciting and wonderful than leaving here in 19 sleeps; it is about the best thing I can imagine.

Comments

teacherwoman said…
So what are your plans for when you get back to the Midwest?? Will I get to see you at all??
10/30/2006 5:41 PM
Anonymous said…
Are you going to Bis or straight to Minne-crap? Maybe you should take a trip through Montana while you're on the whirlwind tour of America.
10/31/2006 9:31 AM
Girl of Approval said…
:) Everyone wants a piece of you.

You've been away from home far too long, girl. It's time to come home and spread your wings in a new direction, upward.
10/31/2006 12:14 PM
Anonymous said…
Happy to hear that you are finally going to be close to home....If you get bored come visit Portland!?
10/31/2006 10:34 PM
cdoc said…
If I could go to all places to see all of you, I would.
11/01/2006 12:29 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

I was always a bit skeptic of this phrase. How can being away from a person make you fonder? With time, you will slowly start to forget the sound of their laughter and the scent of their hair. You will forget the way they dance and the way they like their toast. Sure, when you see them again, when they laugh or dance, all those things come rushing back. Being away may make you yearn for them, but you no longer know them as well as you used to. At least that is what I used to think. I should have know this phrase was true since whenever I would see my sisters again, it was like no time had passed. I don't know what it was that made me realize all that I took for granted, maybe it is being away from home for so long or my travel mishaps or my friend's car accident or maybe just that I am getting older, something made me see how I took everything for granted in my life before I came here. It was so easy, I could go up the stairs or across the hall or get in my car and spend a day
Read more

Target

I called my Mom to tell her that the parents are back and that I am responsibility-free in the evenings and weekends again. She didn't answer, but returned my phone call soon after. I told her my news, and she shared with me that she was about to head into the new Target. We are a family of Target-lovers, what's not to love? As she walked in, she said "it's huge." I tried talking to her, but could tell that she was distracted. She started to ask me something, "Did you... you should see the card section, it is like the one in Grand Forks." I, again, tried to change the subject back to what I was talking about. I finally let her go because she needed to finish shopping in there before returning home to watch Lost, throwing in "it has a Starbucks" before we said our goodbyes. A few minutes later my phone rings. It is my Mom again, she called to say "You should see all the food they have. They have a lot of organic food, organic oatmeal and or
Read more

What do I do?

All week I have made some attempt to tell the parents I am leaving. It started on Tuesday, all night I tried to tell them, but everytime I was about to bring it up, one of the parents would leave the room or the baby got hurt, etc. Wednesday, I made plans to go to the neighbors when the parents got home, but I made an attempt to tell them anyway, but S was glued to my side. I kept trying to distract her with food and television, but no go. I could have just said "I need to talk to you parents, go away", but I know her well enough to know that would have only peaked her interest and she would never go away. Last night, I was SO ready to tell them. The father asked me to watch the girls for 15 minutes while he weed-whacked the yard. I said sure, thinking the mother should be home any minute and then I could tell her when he is outside (I decided that if I can't tell them both at the same time, I will tell the mother alone). I waited and waited and waited. Not only was it 8
Read more