1 am, no sleep and nothing to say

1 am. I can't sleep. I am not sure why. Maybe its because it is storming outside, the wind is howling and when I wake there will be a foot of fresh snow on the ground. Maybe it is because I have a lot of people on my mind, ones I haven't seen in months, years. Or maybe it is because I don't want to sleep. I am having a lot of dreams lately, not bad ones, but ones that make me get lost in the thought the next day. And sleeping is lonely. I turn off the lights, it is dark and I lay there thinking of all that I am missing out on this far away. And when I don't have to wake up at 6 am the next morning and work a 12.5 hour day, it is nice to stay up late simply because I can. And at 1 am, the house is quiet, no crying baby or whining 5 year old, it is almost like I am here alone. I know if I read a book or turn on the tv and lay down, I will eventually fall asleep. But I am trying to keep myself busy, hence the entry about nothing. Sometimes I feel like I have something to say, but it turns out that I don't. So goodnight to all that are on my mind, I hope to see you soon, but until then I will see you in my dreams.

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Anonymous said…
I am right here with you...normally have to get up at 5am, but not tomorrow, so I stay up late just because. But I think that throws off the interal cycle in my body, and I am tired all day Sunday even tho I get 9 hours of sleep. And then it is even harder to get up on Monday.
2/12/2006 12:14 AM
Anonymous said…
Goodnight, love you, see in soon.
2/12/2006 12:24 AM
Anonymous said…
Oops. It's late here too. See YOU soon.
2/12/2006 12:24 AM
Anonymous said…
Good night, love you, see you in the morning. Sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite. If they do, take a shoe and beat them black and blue ... or until they poo (like AJ would say).

I will see you THIS WEEK - 5 MORE SLEEPS!!!!
2/13/2006 8:53 AM
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