Things that go bump in the night.

My work day ended early today, at 3 pm. The family, along with the grandparents, went to Long Island for the brother's engagement party/reception (they are getting married in Italy). They offered for me to go along this weekend, but I turned it down, thinking of how great it would be to have the place to myself for a weekend. I enjoyed it during the day, eating dinner while watching television in the family room, with no worries about being "caught" in a room that is supposed to have no food. Now, it is night and suddenly I am not enjoying it as much. This house is 5700 sq. ft. and 3 floors, that is a lot of hiding places for the boogie man. So for the next couple nights, the environmentalist is being an energy glutton. I turned on 4 lights on the main floor, 2 on the second floor, and one on across the hall from my room, along with the 2 night-lights in my room. Why so many? Did you read the part about 5700 sq. ft.? That is a lot of house, I need lights on so I can get from one part of the house to the other with enough light, which requires all the lights I turned on, I checked to make sure. I have always had a fear of the dark, but along with my fear of water, it is more about the unknown than the actual dark (or water), you never know what is lurking. I will be able to handle it, it is only 2.5 nights alone. But in 1 month, it will be 10 nights alone with Baby S when the parents are in Italy for 16 days (my parents will be here for some of it). I will deal with it, one night at a time. UPDATES: The nanny the parents offered the job to turned it down, she did not want to wait 2 months, she wanted to start now. So it is back to the nanny hunt, which means once again I don't know the exact date that I am leaving, which sucks. And the grandparents know, the grandmother confronted me. She said she thought I would stay at least 2 years. I told her I missed my family and also needed a job with health insurance. Clearly wanting me to stay in their lives, she told me that I could work as a photographer for the father and grandfather's business and then I would have health insurance, even though she didn't have a job to offer since it is not her business. The grandparents put in an offer today for a house, with a closing date of November 30th the latest, so maybe the parents won't need a new nanny if the grandparents move up here in time, so we will see what happens.